You do cause you have to do it,
dreaming, creating, it all takes courage and you do it cause you must.
For no other reason but at the command of your soul.
You create, but its not perfect & it bothers you
So you go back, searching within to ponder how to rise up to your taste, how to best illustrate meaning..
You take a hiatus, you procrastinate, you plan & make lists of every single idea, every single tomorrow & someday
At your core, the hunger noisily draws a growl
you create, except for right now you can only do it in your head:
wardrobe, location, a theme, maybe a model, lots of natural light, calming silence- except for the familiar clicking of your shutter.
click click, turn, tilt your face, more, do it again, nice, looking good, again…click click
Its all so comforting, 1 hour, 2 hours killed. damn where did time go?.
its happening all in your head-thats the only place it can happen, and right now thats okay because you can’t physically create but you must.
#016: Kwabs: Wilhelm Scream (James Blake Cover)
If Soul had a soundtrack,it would be a dream if the vocals would be done by Kwabena a.ka. Kwabs.
Probably the moment sincere I have been behind & in-front of the lens. I have been talking about sharing these images for a while now, I feel such joy to finally share them with the world. More images from this body of work can be seen on my website here.
We are cultured to suppress negative energy & feelings and exhibit happiness, enthusiasm and all round togetherness in order to appear whole. Overtime this leads to burnout- if you add the million other things that occupy our minds, trying to curate our emotions on a daily is tedious. I am kind of tired today & just felt like recording this feeling, this moment, to remind myself that I am human. Its okay to breath and just be sometimes.
Breathe, be. To anyone feeling the same way out there.
#016: Sureeyapon Sri-ampai
I tend to use few words when I stumble upon something phenomenal..
These images are giving me so much life, I have been staring & staring at them for quite sometime now.
I have been procrastinating to write this post, mainly because I did not just want to get away with a summary and then just hit publish. Oh well finally seating down & actually feeling like writing this post.
Last week it happened. I showcased my photography for the very first time with RAW. From the beginning of this year I’ve been creating images that I never shared with anyone or put anywhere, just honest personal work that I felt I needed to do to be true to myself. I also wrote down a goal in January that I would have at least one showcase before the year was up. It’s been so many things that have inspired my current approach to photography as well as overall attitude towards my creative journey. First of all I have a PSA (!!) I am no longer a photography major (this is another post of its own at another time) instead I’ve decided to major in graphic design and will graduate this coming May.
I’ve been reading books of photographers long gone from this earth (notably Gordon Parks), soaking in their wisdom, their journey, I’ve been drawn into the world of poets & dreamers concerning the creative journey (notably Rainer M Rilke). I took a painting class last semester, which too indirectly had a huge influence on myself, my creative journey & how I see the world. I also started keeping a physical sketchbook and an online one of images & stories that managed to articulate so well what I personally could not express. I have also met & sparked up conversations with other seriously talented individuals who left me feeling inspired and reassured in this journey. Its from these collections of inspiration that I manage to clearly see what my taste is, I see a pattern of things am drawn to, its freaking amazing how the subconscious is largely at play here because I see recurring themes, ideas and even color palettes that appeal to me without me even consciously choosing them.
So out of these sequence of encounters, choices, thoughts, “Soul” was born. (I will blog about this separately in the near future). It is an ongoing body of images that directly speak from my heart, an attempt to move away from creating just pretty pictures. Its deeply important to me that my work has a “why” behind it, there has to be a reason and a story. I am excited to see the growth of this series! And honestly I am not in a hurry -as I previously was- to create work and put it out there, I am embracing my own journey at my own pace doing stuff that leaves me fulfilled. I feel it is extremely important that creative’s do an audit of their journey, is it fulfilling? Is it intentional? Are you happy? Seek out answers from around you; trust me they will come to you if you don’t find them.
A big thank you to my family, friends, classmates and everyone who showed me love and came out last week! And those in distant lands, who wrote me messages, thank you!
Photo credit: Marc James Imagery. More photos from this amazing night as well as the work of amazing artists from the twin cities can be found here.
#015: You & me- Disclosure ft Elizabeth Doolittle
"So please don’t let go, cause you know exactly what we found"
#015: ALEXIS MIRE
Perhaps inside I am an old soul. I gravitate so much towards things of years passed. Old books, buildings, photos. Old questions that no one is there to answer. Mysterious things. Film.
I love Lexi’s work especially her film photographs because they take me back. Theres nothing quite like the look of film. It is my dream to one day shoot film and not just one roll but many rolls over & over without a care of cost & what not! So yeah, film is my inspiration.
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This has been by the far the most action packed month for me, school, work, life in general. Honestly, I’ve over committed my self and there are moments of intense stress to keep up with everything but I am sticking it out until the end. Just like those 4 weeks I enrolled in bootcamp gym classes at the Y just before this summer: I almost cried in every class yet was always glad i endured til the end Lol oh Hellen!
So far there are two big highlights that make October special.
1. Volunteering for AIGA’S HHH Design Conference.
Man this was a big one. Aside from photographers, graphic designers are coolest people on the planet. Being here surrounded by powerful creative energy for 3 days, amazing speakers and of-course lots of free coffee & pastries reaffirmed to me that this is exactly the industry I want to be in. I felt at home. Inspired and determined to just go for it. The key thing I took out from these 3 days was ‘intention’. This is a theme that drives my life lately. Everything I do has to have meaning and purpose, it has to align with the greater vision I have for myself. More on living with intention later but yeah, its very important to set written goals for ourselves and then move in said direction. With over 300 speakers, I obviously couldn’t attend every session because I was a volunteer, but of the few I managed to attend, Draplin was my (and many others) favorite speaker hands down, he is too awesome & even got a stand ovation!! And then there was Ruth Ansel,
My God it breaks my heart that I was unable to attend her talk (was on volunteer duty during her session), I mean the lady has accomplished the dreams of my life! She made her debut as one of the youngest art directors in the history of magazines (!!) when she worked for Harper’s Bazaar (after Alexey Brodovitch, there was Marvin Israel, and then her). She has worked with all the leading magazines and photographers you can imagine: Vanity Fair, The New York Times magazine,Richard Avedon, Annie Leibovitz, Tim Walker (!!!) and so on.
It was an awesome week with lots of design freebies, creative energy, massive closing party with a photo-booth (!!) wow I would definitely do this again next year.
2.I have a photo exhibition coming up.
Its super nerve wrecking but I am anxiously excited! At the beginning of this year, one of my goals was to have at least one exhibition before the year was up and its gonna happen tonight. In my journey towards being more intentional, I am constantly questioning why I create, there has to be purpose- and its not to just take pretty pictures. There has to be a story and so this leads to my current body of work which I’ll share when I can. If you are in Minneapolis please come out tonight @ The venue Minneapolis on 315 First Ave North. I’ll be part of RAW Minnepolis’s October show titled “Encompass” with a handful of other amazing fine artists from the Twin cities- come say hi ok?!
These are from my swipe file- my little online collection of images that makes me feel so soulful & inspired & alive. The exact same way I feel when I play Florence & the Machine’s music. and now that sounds soo cheesy!! *Whatever*
Good Morning people!!